I Knew You Were Waiting For Me: What Song Inspires You When Life at the Lowest?

When the Valley Is Low

February has been one of the lowest, “Debbie-downer” months for me. I am burned out. Tired. Stressed. Failed so many job applications. I just want to give up.

I think of my self as a person who has good days and bad days. I am mostly optimistic about myself as if I want something done; I get it done — I am also very stubborn. So if I set a goal of submitting 20 job applications in a week, I will do it. If I need to talk to somebody over the phone about something in Japanese, I will do it even though I am afraid of talking to people over the phone. If I have the power to do it, I will do it!

Self-love is a hard thing to measure because there are some days where I am like “I can do this,” and there are some days where I am like “I hate myself.” I can be super hard on myself as I am a perfectionist. But, sometimes I am too much of an overachiever and dedicate my time for everything but me. But there isn’t a day where I am like “I am thankful this or that.” I am even thankful for today because I wrote so much and did all my chores.

Like a warrior that fights
And wins the battle
I know the taste of victory
Though I went through some nights
Consumed by the shadows
I was crippled emotionally

I Turn To You

As I said, I am lonely because I feel I have no support from the people that surround me physically or close to me (than say someone online). I have wild dreams, I know, and maybe I am too optimistic. But, I have to try those dreams out before giving up. My co-workers and those I interactive physically daily give up too quickly. I feel like I am trapped in a pessimistic den. People tell me I can’t do this or do that because they even never try. (And, on a side note, it isn’t about my dreams either. It happens with work-related things too) And when I seek professional help from other business-like minds, they even turn down my ideas. Except for one, and he is a dear friend.

Also, it is too hard to get support from my parents when I ask them to help to start my blog business or helping me pay my bills when I am in trouble. I want to invest in a business/blogging coach, but it is hard to scrap the money together because my budget is very tight and emergencies do come up from time to time. My parents turn down my request for help. Even, when I wanted money to go to a summit with other women (which was worth it), my dad texted me and said: “You want to pay $30 for a pity party?”

is too hard to get support from my parents when I ask them to help to start my blog business or helping me pay my bills when I am in trouble. I want to invest in a business/blogging coach, but it is hard to scrap the money together because my budget is very tight and emergencies do come up from time to time. My parents turn down my request for help. Even, when I wanted money to go to a summit with other women (which was worth it), my dad texted me and said: “You want to pay $30 for a pity party?”

is too hard to get support from my parents when I ask them to help to start my blog business or helping me pay my bills when I am in trouble. I want to invest in a business/blogging coach, but it is hard to scrap the money together because my budget is very tight and emergencies do come up from time to time. My parents turn down my request for help. Even, when I wanted money to go to a summit with other women (which was worth it), my dad texted me and said: “You want to pay $30 for a pity party?”

(I could get a loan but I am afraid to be more in debt.)

Maybe I should stop being scared of reaching out when I need help. I should be more open too. Whenever I can’t solve a problem, and I go to someone for help, I might be stuck on step 5. But when I talk to someone, there brings me back to step one, and it annoys me because I know what step 1-4 are. Same thing when someone is trying to tell me all the actions of a procedure in their way when I have my way. Like, I feel like they don’t try to understand me. Maybe I need to be more clear in my communication and tell them formally but more precisely.

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66 thoughts on “I Knew You Were Waiting For Me: What Song Inspires You When Life at the Lowest?

  1. Thanks for sharing this post, it’s important to talk about the rubbish days as well as the brilliant ones. I feel like I’m only just starting to get into a routine in the new year, I felt totally unsettled for January and most of February! Sometimes, the only person who believes in you, is you. Which is pessimistic, but you can control what you do, you can’t with others. Might take longer without support from other people, but you can still get there. You’ve got this! 💪

  2. Life has taught me a lot over the years, I discovered that having a lot of friends and no one when it really matters is nonsense. When am at the lowest point in my life I have my good friend who will call and just by the sound of my voice he knows how i feel. we will sit down somewhere, talk all night till am tired. After that, I feel good about myself and with his encouraging words, I go out again to hustle.

  3. ariannepeters6986 says:

    I try my hardest not to listen to depressing songs when I’m down but it’s so hard!
    Fighter- Christiana Aguilera
    Work B!tch- Brittney Spears

  4. It really is amazing how much life can change and so fast! I understand what it is like being home sick and just feeling SO lonely. I do hope you are feeling better and feeling less lonely. To be honest with you, I do not know much about Japan, but I do live in the US and it has been a mess lately. This is just being talking solely based on my frustrations with the US, I would stay where you are in Japan. I can’t imagine it is any crazier or upsetting. I am looking forward to reading more of your posts and I hope if you have time, you will check out my site. Even though I live with Multiple Sclerosis which causes a lot of pain, I do the best I can to spread as much positivity as I can! I hope you had a nice weekend and I hope the next week is great!! Take Care!!

  5. You, Me and Benny says:

    oh I am sorry you’re having a bad time – but it’s amazing how music can make you feel better for the few minutes of whatever song you have!

  6. Life can change in an instant, and I hope you have better days ahead. Enjoyed your selections – what I like about your blog is the music flavor you bring us of other cultures. Of the two songs by Asian artists, I liked both, but especially Makenaide – I looked up the English translation of the lyrics. The musical intro sounded vaguely familiar somehow – to me, it had a nice 80’s sound. Have a good week!

  7. Stephen T. McCarthy says:

    Well, AMY, since you asked…

    This is my personal fight song:

    By the time that take-no-prisoners electric guitar kicks in (at about 2:33), I am seriously ready to kick some butt!

    (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NVoDULF4sAM)

    And then, in times of greater reflection, I go back to what I consider the greatest vocal performance of all time. Make no mistake about it: that wasn’t really Mahalia Jackson singing; that was The Holy Spirit of God singing *THROUGH* Mahalia. She was just the instrument The Spirit was using. You can even see It flashing out of her eyes. And at about the 4:05 mark, Mahalia is hardly even there at all anymore, because The Holy Spirit is the Principal Force of the song:

    Everything that every one of us really needs to know is found here, in these 5 very short chapters:

    https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1+John+1-5&version=NLT

    ~ D-FensDogG

  8. Amy,

    Excellent theme choice for ‘your song choice’ week! Mewsic is my go-to when I’m feeling down. Depending on the situation, but generally reminding myself of God’s love pulls me out of any ole slump faster than anything. My heart always dials back to the day when I went to a little country church and one of the hymns often sung by the congregation was ‘Love Lifted Me’. My parents listened to The Statler Brothers a lot when I was a kid, so I found them singing this old hymnal.

    Another song that does my heart good is Amy Grant’s ‘El Shaddai’.

    Like Stephen, my strength comes from the Lord in good and the not-so-good times of my life. 🙂

    You shared some beautiful oldies with ‘Aint No Mountain High Enough’ and ‘What A Wonderful World’. These are furtastic songs to motivate a person. Thanks for sharing and hitting the dance floor with the 4M gang. Have a boogietastic week, my dear. 😘 BTW, did I ever tell you my very first pen friend was from Japan?

  9. amayszingblogs says:

    Ow, I’m so sorry for having your bad days. Oh well I think we have similarities I love music actually music is my inhaler when I feel down and depressed and my favorite song is Fix you by Coldplay. 🙂

  10. ksbitsnpieces says:

    Music is such a powerful thing. It can sum you up in 3 minutes, it can make you feel things, it can change your perspective. Awesome post

  11. There’s never enough time to do everything when you’re a teacher. Prioritize what’s most important and let go of what you can. Striving for perfection will drive you crazy. You need a personal life.

  12. Ugh, sounds like a rough day. I’ve had those, too, and find music to be helpful. Sometimes I want upbeat songs to lift me out of a mood and others I like the slow depressing songs to just match my mood.

  13. **virtual hugs** hang in there! Sometimes I think it helps to say it out loud, or on paper, just to get those feelings out. It’s so important to be kind because we never know what someone is dealing with. My go to when I’m having a bad day is to watch a “friends” rerun- the theme song always works for me. “When it hasn’t been your day, week, month, or even your yeaaaar, I’ll be there for you.”

  14. Arlee Bird says:

    Sorry to hear about your current situation but this too shall pass. I’ve been there a few times–even quite recently. Often in my down times I prefer silence to music. Maybe that’s because when I am most down I get most inspired to write my own songs so I need that silence in order to create new music.

    I don’t guess I have any particular song that helps me through troubled times. Typically I might turn more to classical music to play background to my moods. Music can be a great comforter as well as an uplifting force, but sometimes the music comes through the silence, that music being the sounds of life outside my doors.

    Arlee Bird
    Tossing It Out

  15. Being a teacher is a great profession, but you do give a lot of yourself. I am sorry you are having a hard time. Keep trying different things to help you manage. I don’t know if you believe in prayer, but turning to God makes a big difference. He gives great comfort and wisdom on the next steps.

  16. 1986 duet by George Michael and Aretha Franklin, “I Knew You Were Waiting (For Me). Holy Cow, I didn’t know they did a duet together I only knew of one that she did & I believe that was with Lionel Richie & they were both quite young, but I truly love this one! I can’t give you anything on a song I cannot understand, but love Marvin Gaye & Tammi Terrell in Ain’t no Mountain High Enough truly love that tune. Now we could be here all day if I go one by one all I can say is I enjoyed myself immensely today at your blog. Thanks for joining us. Truly great selections.

  17. Everything is still expensive here in the US. If there’s one thing I miss teaching in Indonesia is that I got my full salary. The school pays for the tax, my apartment and bills, and I only take care of my grocery. Hope you’re feeling better!

  18. Sorry that your struggling with some issues and I hope things will get better for you, soon! Music has great stress-relieving properties. I enjoyed listening to your selections. One of my favourites:

  19. Sorry people around you are being a negative Nancy! Money-wise, perhaps you can find a side hustle? If you can search for it online, there are companies that hire teachers to teach English online. As for a song for when I feel irritated and sad (mostly because of my work environment), I like to listen to Queen’s “I Want To Break Free” 🙂 https://youtu.be/DH8q2ifO3pI

  20. Matija Antonić says:

    Having bad days is just how it goes, don’t stress about it too much, everything can be worked out, if you enjoy Japan, and the life there you will find out a way to make it work, I’m keeping my fingers crossed that next month is way better, don’t give up 😀

  21. Elizabeth O says:

    My prayers are with you. I like to hear Eminem’s Not Afraid and Lose Yourself whenever I feel low. Music helps me to forget my pain

  22. You are awesome! There’s no reason to be lonely. I agree there are times we feel very lonely and low but always remember, it shall pass. Appreciate every little thing so you’ll feel blessed and happy. And yes, in times like these, music is the healer.

  23. Hey there, I have been a long follower of your blog and your battle of such great bands! In so many days you have cheered me up with difficult bands to choose from, so I hope today in your not so fantastic day… I can also cheer you up even by a little bit! Virtual hugs coming your way, and oh when I am sad I normally belt out (LOL) Daniel Powter’s “Bad Day”. All is well.

  24. Angela Tolsma says:

    Being a teacher is a hard job and one I think should definitely pay better. Hope you start to feel better and get a break to recharge yourself.

  25. thewayfaringredhead says:

    Love the power of music…don’t know that I have a certain song that always lifts me up but I will have to think about this.

  26. Jazmin Williams says:

    Thank you for talking about the down days, too! I have feel-good playlists! Not sure if you’d be into these songs, but….

    Hold On – Olly Murs
    Skyscraper – Demi Lovato
    Fight Song – Rachel Platten
    I Won’t – Little Mix
    Just Hold On – Louis Tomlinson
    Love Myself – Hailee Steinfeld
    Feeling Myself – Nicki Minaj ft Beyoncé
    Fire Away – Niall Horan
    Perfect – P!nk
    Girl Almighty – One Direction
    Down.& Dirty – Little Mix
    Beautiful To Me – Olly Murs
    Warrior – Demi Lovato

  27. Stephen T. McCarthy says:

    HiYa, AMY. I’m back with another one for ya! My Brother just directed me to this song, and I had the thought that perhaps you could use it right now as well:

    Zach Williams – ‘FEAR IS A LIAR’

    What is fear? Fear = F.alse E.vidence A.ppearing R.eal
    What is Real? Real = R.eal E.ternal A.lmighty L.ove

    ~ D-FensDogG

  28. Music is one of my favorite things for helping me getting out of my head. When I have those crappy days or need a little boost of energy, putting on my favorites songs, whether from my childhood or today always lifts my spirits.

  29. I’m really sorry to hear that your 2019 isn’t off to the best start, but I hope you remember that that doesn’t mean the whole year has to be bad. Hopefully things start to balance out for you soon, because you deserve to spend every day happy!

  30. There is nothing wrong with scaling back and focusing on yourself and making sure that you are keeping positivity around you. When I am down I occasionally listen to sad music but for the most part I find something I can dance it out to

  31. Geraline Batarra says:

    So sorry to hear that, but for me, when I had bad days I prefer listening to Selena Gomez, songs and Neyo, ‘one life’.

  32. Oh, I see how you were feeling on Friday, is exactly how I’m feeling today, sick, head cold, and my period is about to start (plus I have endometriosis and the pain drains me). Yep, definitely not the best moment to make great debates about life. I am an expat myself, I live in Switzerland. I can relate about the negative vibe of people surrounding me. Get rid of that people and find other people. I couldn’t find the job I wanted, so I invented one I liked! That’s how I work, if I can find it, I make it myself…
    oh, and I don’t listen much to music when I’m low… i prefer to read or go out with friends.

  33. Hang in there! I’m sure it was therapeutic just to get some of the feelings out, but keep working hard and doing whatever makes YOU happy. I’m finally learning that my decisions are for MY life. I also agree that music is so inspirational and can pull you out of so many funks or emotions. It’s my go-to pick-me-up!

  34. I can’t say any one song in particular because I am a different person from day to day. So I song I may have resonated with 10 years ago may hold no meaning at all to me today.

  35. I am sorry to hear things have been tough for you lately. I have been struggling as well. I am still getting adjusted to a big move that we made a few months ago. I have been feeling low and feeling like an outsider as well. Songs that inspire me are any song that falls in the Christian music category. I hope things get better for you soon!

  36. Bindu Thomas says:

    This post is really great. Music can inspire, motivates and makes you feel better. Thank you for sharing this post.

  37. I’m sorry you’re having a rough time – this too shall pass. Hang in there, the year is still young, you have plenty of time to bounce back. I love listening to music when I’m feeling down – it always seems to perk me back up! Thanks for the introduction to that song, and for the dance! 🙂

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